Tuesday, December 16, 2008

I looooooiike you

I love you. Those three little words are so often said and hold so much meaning and emotion. I can't say them. Well I say them to Blaine and the kids, but that's where it stops. It's not that I don't want to say but it is so darn awkward for me.

I know my parents love me (how could they not?), and I surely hope they know I love them, but we never said it much. Blaine was the first person (probably ever) that I actually said "I love you" to. When I dated other people whilst Blaine was on his "religious excursion" they would say "Kristi, I love you" and I would be like "uh.....that is so nice, you're....really great" (in my head I would think, "I love Blaine!"). Blaine's family is very easy going with the "I love you"s. And I do love them, I just can't bring myself to say it; especially in person, but not even on the phone!

And my Texas friends....woweeee... everytime we part ways from getting our mail my cute neighbor says, "love ya girl!" and I say, with a nervous chuckle "oh, yeah, you're awesome!" and usually do something cheesy like that little wink -while -pretending -your -finger -is -a -little- gun -thing. Or something.

So the emotion is there, but the words, they get stuck in my throat. So just know, I probably love ya (I can't even type love "you" way too serious), but I probably can't bring myself to say it.

Merry Christmas!


Wendy said...

A fun and revealing post. Even though we are liberal in our family with the use of "I love you" I hope you know we really mean it!!!

Anonymous said...

You are hilarious. Way to broach the awkward subjects. I am pretty much like you in this regard. Let's just take Alison Kraus's advice:

You say it best
when you say nothing at all.

Nothing at all, Kris. We know. I know. You don't have to say it.

;-) There's the wink, and if I had a semi-colon/parentheses version of the pretending-your-finger-is-a-little-gun-thing, I would put that on here too.

Janssen said...

And this is why we're friends. I'm equally bad about hugging and such.

Ralphie said...

The only time I have ever seen Janssen hug someone was when she was so excited about seeing the Twilight movie, she just couldn't contain herself any more.

Just so you know, I love you Kristi Bassett.


Sheyenne said...

You don't have to say it. I see it in the way you look at me. Oh the fire in your eyes...

Kathrin Paul said...

I actually read this out loud to my sister and we laughed. I actually had to tell my (other) sister to not being offended when I don't end every conversation we have (often once a day) with "love ya" because then it just gets trite and it doesn't mean as much.