Today a wave of homesickness hit me in the gut. Really hard. Came out of nowhere. I think it might stem from the fact that I have SO much I want to learn about right now and the people I want to teach me are all in Utah. Back when I lived there I lacked the resources and desire to learn much from anyone. Now all I really want is to have my own garden and to paint the walls of my house, those are jobs you can't really ask friends to help you with, you gotta have family.
There is also a certain feeling of safety that comes from being around family, parents in particular. Whenever one of our parents come to visit I feel about a hundred pounds of weight lifted off of my shoulders. Not sure why; they don't take over the mortgage or anything crazy like that. Just the simple act of them being here...of knowing that someone more responsible than me is around to turn to. It's very relieving. Sometimes the weight of being responsible for the safety and security of three children is just overwhelming. Knowing that they see me as the brave one, the one that can keep them safe. It's crazy.
It must be weird being the oldest generation around. With no one to turn to to learn from or to rely on if things get tough (to be read: mom, can we come live at your house if the economy keeps going to pot?).
That all being said, we are very much looking forward to Blaine's mom coming to visit in two weeks and for my parents to come in April. I don't know what we are going to do when we stop having a new baby every year...I think it is the new babies that keep the visitors coming.