Today I lost 300 pictures from my camera. Three hundred. They were pictures from about the entire last month. As in half of Ivy's life. As in her first smiles. Her Easter dress. Easter egg hunts. Cute pictures of Ben holding Ivy. Conference Breakfast. The toilet paper disaster of 09 (that was going to be a blog post). The picture of our coffee table the day that Bentley knocked over a glass of water and incidentally got my bank receipt all wet which somehow transposed all of our bank information from the receipt to be permanently imprinted on our table...resulting in me never being able to sell the table because, well, our bank account number is printed on it. I lost it all. And I just ache.
I had some really really really great pictures of Ivy smiling today. That elusive smile has yet to be caught on film. But today, in the perfect lighting of late afternoon, with her new Easter dress and beautiful bow, I got some great pictures. Pictures that would have made Ralphie and Meleah proud.
But now they are gone.
And I am going to go cry about it, because they really meant a lot to me.